May 16, 2013
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Thursday 16th May
Anson was up early so he could drive along the beach and load the bales of wool on the truck while the tide was low.
I could hear him trundling along the beach around 7:30am.
He took them up to the top of the hill and loaded them on the truck at 11am.
I had Helene & kids primed that I wanted to get the living area cleaned up.
We are in such a pickle at present with stuff everywhere, that I have to feel like one room of the house is actually tidy and sorted.
So after breakfast Helene skinned the pot of pumpkin I had cooked up last night, and pureed it in the processor ready for soup.
Then she swept the floor while Shoshannah folded washing.
I was getting mentally prepared for a business meeting so I was showered and dressed relatively early - for me!
Azzan was very reticent to get out of bed, but as he had GO at 9am I started kicking him along soon after 8am.
Because the kitchen was busy I told him to skype on my laptop on my bed rather than on the computer in the living room.
He arrived with a plate of sausages and eggs, a cup of jelly and a glass of juice!
Alright for some!
I was too busy to take a lot of notice of what they were talking a bout today but whatever it was kept him occupied and involved for some time which was great.
Shoshannah had taken a call while I was in the shower from some friends of Cat's wanting to visit.
All I knew was that they were coming today, didn't know when.
Because I was so busy and hadn't actually talked with them myself I then forgot, so I was a bit taken aback when they arrived.
I was flat out trying to clear the kitchen of all Shoshannah's gear, make soup etc and was falling over in desperation to get some food as I hadn't had a chance to have breakfast yet.
My head was splitting despite taking Panadol earlier.
I was also completely overwhelmed emotionally as I had a lot of angst churning in my head with the proposed meeting and was just not able to deal with visitors that I didn't know.
I carried on with what I needed to do, and finally was able to sit down and eat some food.
Shoshannah was preparing food so she happily entertained them.
Azzan poked his nose out as well but then had to scurry back to his lessons.
The guests were wanting to talk about Tim.
I was so not up to that this morning - not a good day for me to be able to share my emotions and feelings with outsiders.
I can tough it out sometimes but other times I am just feeling far too fragile and rather than risking cracking up in front of strangers I have to walk away.
Anson & Mahalia arrived and helped with the entertaining as they also knew the girls.
I had made a large pot of soup so invited everyone to help themselves.
I was grateful that a phone call took me away from the bustle of the kitchen.
It was really good to talk & cry on Ella's shoulder for a while.
I had the impending meeting hanging over my head - finally scheduled it for 2pm so Anson had time to muster a few sheep down to the shed.
The girls helped the kids clean up lunch and then they all vacated and went off fishing.
Azzan was at a loose end & didn't want to fish with the girls so I sent him packing outside.
He walked round to see Marah so she took him walking.
Anson arrived at the same time as our skipper and his partner.
It was a very stressful meeting.
I am having to make some tough decisions.
Thankfully Anson was able to side track the partner away so I could have a one on one, less emotional talk with our skipper.
We sorted a lot of things out.
It is so difficult having to take up the reins from Tim at times like this.
We worked so well together.
We were a good team, balancing each other.
We used to talk through all the decisions and I am so missing having him here to discuss everything with and decide matters together.
Now I am having to call the shots on my own and I don't like it.
I'm mad, angry, upset at having been left in the lurch dealing with this alone.
When he finally left I just sat and cried.
I was emotionally drained.
Anson went home for a very late lunch and then went out to help do a harvest on Tardis.
Marah came around and had dinner with us.
I had taken a Malayan fish dish out of the freezer, and managed to burn the pot of boiled pumpkin.
I am becoming the burnt pot queen around here
It cant have been too bad though cuz Helene ate all the left over pumpkin - she has gone nuts over it.
They don't eat pumpkin as a popular vege like we do.
Azzan cut up & roasted a large amount of potato chips.
I thawed some containers of frozen kiwifruit and pears and Shoshannah made a delicious crumble topping with dates and coconut in it to go on top of the fruit for dessert.
I am trying to use food from the freezers as much as possible to try and get them emptied a bit as they are all so full right now and we don't have any spare room for meat when Anson kills a beast next.
After dinner I sat and talked with Marah while I sewed on the buttons of the wee hoodie I have just finished for Sunni & Mat.
It is so cute.
Can't wait to see it being worn
The kids went off to bed after the dishes were cleaned up.
Marah & I talked for ages.
It was good to be able to cry and process things with someone else.
She is being such a help with the kids while I can't give them much extra right now.
I am barely coping with me and have been struggling to give the young ones the individual support they each need.
I am just so grateful that my boys and their ladies are close in proximity and spirit right now.
Anson came back home so Marah took his plate of dinner to him.
Azzan is finally asleep - he's in my bed still as Helene is still painting his bedroom.
She is nearly finished thankfully.
It is looking so good - lovely and fresh.
I will get his curtains done soon and hopefully we have enough carpet left to put down to make his room a bit warmer for the winter.
Then I will get my bed back
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