April 16, 2013

• Tuesday 16th April

   

   

   

   

  As usual, awake early.

  But this time I woke feeling really awful.

  I had a headache and was feeling sick.

  Like really sick, like vomiting sick.

  My right shoulder was also really sore, it has been causing me some discomfort again recently.

  I have been trying to get back to see my massage therapist for ages but he is always booked out

   

  I started drinking water to try and flush away the ill feeling.

  Azzan was up and through the shower soon after I woke.

  Seb called up and said he was coming over early with the new wwoofer.

  I zipped out to the kitchen and got the porridge on for Nils & Aylin and made some bread.

  Then into the shower.

  I was feeling a weeny bit better.

  While showering memories started flooding back and the tears joined the water splashing down my face.

  The thing I find the hardest are the really personal memories.

  I can't share those, they were mine & Tim's memories, but by not sharing they feel in danger of getting lost, because they get hidden in the deep recesses of my mind

   

  Seb arrived with Janis from Germany.

  Put his Safari tyre in the Terrano - I was to take it out to get fixed so Anson could bring it home.

  The kids loaded our gear around it.

  Then quick chat with Seb as to what was happening workwise with the wwoofers for the day, and just after 9am we were off.

  I was very glad to leave early than planned because I had a lot of added activities on my list.

  We drove straight passed the accident site without stopping.

  The kids know that even no stopping doesn't mean no thoughts or tears.

  They put out a hand and rub my arm or my back.

  No words are needed between us.

  We just share the pain.

   

  The road has recently been graded but it is a mess of holes and weird large ruts left by the grader.

  Not at all impressed with the job done.

  Michael was working with the HEB crew so I stopped and chatted and let him know what I thought of it and and he was going to pass on the complaint.
  The HEB guy was also unimpressed so glad I wasn't alone in my thoughts.

   

  We arrived in Nelson around 11:30am, went straight to Beaurepairs to drop off the tyre.

  Shane was happy to do it immediately which was great.

  Had arranged to meet Anson, Marah & Shoshannah at Hanger 58 for lunch as we were all starving hungry.

  Nathan was there, but not officially working so he joined us.

  We all ordered our food but the others never arrived until we had practically finished so it was a bit of a rushed catch up.

  I had to whisk Shoshannah away for her 1pm appointment.

  Anson dropped M&A at the library.

  We spent a very interesting 1.5 hours with Helen Loveday.

  I am hoping that her treatment will really help Shanni, she has been trying for a long time to get on top of a lot of symptoms herself through changing her diet etc but never quite gets there.

  The results from Helen's initial testing and treatment were fascinating and she nailed some major problems.

  I then dropped Shoshannah off at Nelson Beauty and then went to meet Anson to try and sort out his phone.

  After being run over it was rather dead - and they were saying all his data was lost.

  But I am sure there must be someone who can help retrieve it!!
  It is a Nokia Lumiere so if anyone reading this has any ideas then please message me privately.

  It took a wee while to sort a new phone and then transfer information from his loan phone on to the new one and get it set up.

  I left him to it and zipped down the street to Starbucks to meet Shoshannah - who I had dropped off half an hour too early for her appointment so she wanted to go shopping!

  Got a drink, then Anson & I met Shanni at Farmers to get her some jeggings.

  Then she whizzed back over to her appointment and Anson went to pick up Marah.

  Mahalia & Azzan walked up and met me and we did some more shopping for jeggings.
  The trouble with having such a trendy mother is that when I buy something the girls both then want them too

  Azzan decided he also needed some new pants so found some gorgeous bright blue ones with a warm zip up hoodie that matched.

  We then walked around the block, bought a funky red dotty suitcase for Shoshannah, posted the mail, and then back to the car.

  I ran over to get Shoshannah and when I got back to the car both kids had changed into their new gear!

  She was delighted with her suitcase.
  With all the traveling she does now, back and forth to camp etc, she really needs something large enough to carry everything safely.
  I wanted her to have something easily identifiable so we were both happy with her choice.

   

  The rain was really setting in and the day was darkening.

  We headed over to New World to meet up with Anson & Marah.

  I raced through with Azzan and got his lunch sorted for One Day school.
  Left Shoshannah to head off home with Anson & Marah.

  I zipped back into Hardy Street and popped up to see Leeanne with several pieces of material that I had found in my sewing room.
  I had bought them years ago but never got around to using them.
  Now is the time!

  We discussed possibilities and then while Mahalia was at her 5pm harp lesson I shot down to Spotlight to suss out some pattern ideas.

  The kids have been talking about what costumes they want to make for their holiday camp.

  As usual, I had been suggesting they get on with them ages ago, but now there are only a few days left they are all of a sudden inspired!!

  Azzan now knows exactly what he wants to be so he came in and I set him to look for some suitable fabric while I looked through the pattern books.

  He got all stressed with the responsibility but with the help of a shop lady he found what he wanted at a price I was happy with.

  I left him to choose colours and went back to the patterns.

  Shop was shutting at 5:30pm so we didn't have a lot of time.

  I thought he was taking a while to come to me but didn't worry unduly.

  I knew where I was

  When he finally appeared he was all hot and bothered cuz he couldn't find me!

  I told him to line up in the queue because the loud speaker was announcing for customers to get their purchases completed as the shop was closing in 10 minutes.

  I was only a few paces away but he was not happy and was totally stressing because I wasn't standing right beside him.

  He freaked out and came over to me and lost his place in the queue

  I put him back in line and this time he stayed.
  Gave me a few more minutes to check out some more pattern books.

  Once I had told the lady how much he needed, I left them to it and he calmed down and was happy to stand and talk until it was payment time and then he was all anxious again.

  He just couldn't get it that I was right there and had one eye and ear on him and the other on the pattern books.

  After all isn't that what mothers do best - multi-task?

  I am realising though he is incredibly over confident, until you put him in a situation outside his comfort zone.
  In this case he has always had me or the girls to take charge and I need to give him more responsibility with making these decisions so that he will be more confident and comfortable when thrown in the deepend.

  We sailed out of the shop just a few minutes after closing time with a bag of fabric and a phone full of photos for sewing ideas.

  Both of us were happy

  Picked up Mahalia and headed out to Richmond.

  It was dark and raining and only 5:45pm.

  Not too sure if I am ready for winter this year - it all seems a bit too gloomy to soon.

   

  The kids quickly unpacked the Terrano.

  Andrea had dinner all ready.

  A couple of other guests joined us and we had a most enjoyable evening.

  M&A were quite happy to play on my laptop, Azzan loves listening podcasts & TED talks so everytime we are in town we have to download more.

  They were tucked up in bed watching a movie when I tucked them down at 9pm.

  I toddled off downstairs and was not long in going to sleep either.

   

   

   

   

   

   

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