March 14, 2013
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Thursday 14th March
The mornings here are very quiet in the kitchen now.
Tim had the run of the kitchen in the mornings.
I used to stay right out of the way!
That was my time in the spa and office.
Tim would make the porridge, the bread, stew up fruit if there was none, fed his cats, talk & breakfast with whichever child was around early enough to spend that time with their Dad, usually it was Shoshannah.
Now it is too quiet

Mahalia wanted to make jellies for her birthday dinner so she got them made after breakfast.
Cat, Leann & Adina spent the morning doing some much needed repairs and maintenance to the woolshed.
Rainy & Chad left this morning.
We really did enjoy their company and help and hope that we will meet up with them again sometime in the future.

Leann came to say goodbye to them as she was passing through.

Azzan took my camera up to say goodbye to them.
There were some rather 'interesting' photos on there when he returned.
I selected just two lovely ones from the line up!


Leann has been spending a lot of time in the kitchen.
In fact it is mainly her and Shoshanah who are providing the meals around here these days.
I really appreciate her quiet and efficient help.
I am really struggling with getting back into cooking.

Mahalia picked me this beautiful rose.
She commented that he Dad would always pick me the small buds because they would last longer as they took time to open slowly.
Lovely that they remember little things like that.

Several phone calls took up my morning.
Sitting out on the deck, the sun was burning hot through my jeans.
Different sort of temperatures to the past couple of days.
Had a really emotional day.
The tears were very close to the surface all day.
I had some visitors this morning.
Sandra and Phil zipped around in their boat and had a coffee with us just before midday.
Marah walked round then too so we had a good catch up.
Love Marah's new dress - so pretty


Shoshannah decided to make spinach and feta patties.
She doubled the mixture and it made heaps.
I suggested that instead of standing there for hours cooking them as individual fritters, she could bake them in the oven in quiche dishes.
So she did.
Much quicker and easier.
And they were good.
Marah & Mahalia went down to the beach.
I headed off to bed for a rest.
M&M came back and lay on the bed with me.
They had sat and written notes to Tim and scattered them on the waves.
A tender therapeutic thing to do.
We talked and cried together and talked about some of Tim's idiosyncrasies that made him special to us.
Mahalia went home with Marah for the night.
She was concerned about leaving me so left me a present.
A Little Miss Sunshine toy and a sweet note,
'Don't worry Mum everything will be okay love from Halia' 
Graham arrived and brought in bins of tomatoes and beans and fruit.
We talked for a while, catching up on things while he had been away.
Azzan top and tailed beans for dinner while he watched a movie.

Leann & Cat chopped up tomatoes and onions to make tomato sauce.
It is bubbling away on the wood stove alongside a pot of pear paste in the making.
These are the gorgeous flowers Sandra brought round to cheer my day.
I love the dahlias - so gorgeous.

I have all the blankets on my bed already and tonight had to find a heatpack to warm up my feet.
I am not looking forward to long winter nights.
In my bed alone with nobody to keep me warm

Comments (3)
Life is tough right now, but you have wonderful children taking care of you until you can settle into your new normal! I love that they bring you flowers and other gifts!
My heart aches for you. I know the week that all of the arrangements were taking place was hard, but the hardest part is when you go back to "life", and have to figure out how it is going to look from now on, with this huge hole in it. If it helps AT ALL, I can't get you off of my mind, and I am whispering prayers for you several times throughout my day. Sometimes they are just short, "God help her", and other times I pray specifics that I pick up on in your blog. I sincerely can't get through one post without joining with you in tears...so know that others are grieving with you, Raewyn. Even though I never met your precious Tim, I have learned that he was an incredible man and gift to all of you, by your wonderful posts, and beautiful pictures. And I agree with him...you are a special precious. I have always really liked you, and you can't know how sorry I am that you have to go through this. I pray for comfort and a supernatural hug from God to help with that incredible pain and emptiness you are feeling...Keep writing...keep writing...it helps us know how to pray for you. I looked up your beautiful paradise on Google Earth the other day, and it was almost as if I was flying over in a plane...so lovely. I prayed over your whole area, everything that Tim touched with his hands, and worked so hard on over the years. I prayed that God would sustain it, sustain you, and comfort every person that had the privilege of knowing him and being a part of his life. He had a profound impact on many...thank God for that. And I sincerely pray that GOD will keep you warm in some beautiful, tangible way this winter...it will be long, but we will all be here praying you through it.
Much love, Kathryn
I so remember Tim in the kitchen making bread in the 3 bread makers at night getting them ready for breakfast the next morning. That is one of the precious memories I have of Tim among many others especially out on the boat. I am looking forward to seeing you soon.
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