March 1, 2013

• Friday 1st March

   

   

   

   

  I woke up at 5am.

  Got Mahalia up around 5:30am and then Sunni closer to 6am.

  Anson arrived around to pick them up.

  Sunni was flying standby back to Auckland.

  Mahalia had an orthodontist appointment at 9:20am which he and Marah were taking her to for me.

  I just could not face going to town at the moment.

  I am so tired, and just so overwhelmed with everything.

  Don't want to be around too many people.

  It is just all too much.

  So thankful for my kids for taking charge and helping me through this right now.

  They are all feeling pain too, I know, we are all grief stricken, but they all in their own ways are helping me and each other.

   

   

  I had a long soak in the spa this morning.

  Ended up having a couple of phone conversations whilst in there.

  One to Ross from the police about Nathan's accident.

  I am most concerned as to the lack of concern and care that was given him at the time.

  Ross told me to get Nathan to write him about it and he will follow up for us.

   

   

  Jesika, Evan & Nathan arrived over mid morning.

  I got Nathan to write his letter to the police explaining what had not happened when he called them for help on Tuesday.

  J&E were driving my Terrano out to Nelson.

  From there I had a rental car organised for them to drive to Christchurch.

  It was close to midday before they were all ready to go.

  I hopped in the Terrano to turn it around and found the blasted battery was near flat and the engine wouldn't turn over.

  Looks like I might have damaged it on Saturday when I left the lights on and flattened it totally.

  I just felt so overwhelmed right then and sat with my head on the steering wheel and tried to breath through the threatening tears.

  Sebastian had just arrived so he came to my rescue and got the jumper leads into action and soon had it started.

  We waved goodbye to Jesika, Evan & Nathan.

  Only a few months till their wedding and I am sure the time will fly, but it was a hard goodbye.

   

  Phoebe stayed with me and we sorted through paint colour charts and called up the paint shop to order what samples we wanted as we are planning to paint the houses - be good to freshen them up before winter.
  

  Then she went home in the dinghy - all by herself!
  

  Seb has been teaching her how to use the outboard motor so this was her maiden voyage.
  

  And she did good!
  

   

   

   

  Cat took Murray, Leann & Adina out sailing in 'Vision' for the afternoon.

  It was a glorious day - not a lot of wind but great for them to get out there.

  They had a lovely time exploring the caves around Chetwode Islands.

  Cat went diving and got a crayfish and they others caught some blue cod.

   

   

  The mailboat came around 2pm.

  I didn't think it was fair to let the 2 children face the crowds for the first time so I wandered down with them and sat in the sun on the end of the wharf while we waited.

  It was very soothing and calming just sitting there with them.

  Shoshannah echoed my thoughts when she said how lovely it was to be just us again for a wee while.

  I love having people around, all the support and love is immensely appreciated, but right now I just need space and quiet.

  My head is not coping with too much noise or any pressures.

  

  

   

  

   

  The mailboat came and went.

  Then Steve arrived with his boat full of men - they were staying at the Lodge.

  He came up to see me.

  He's stayed in our accommodation many times and I have just known him as one of the blokes, but his concern was heartfelt and his offer to help in anyway was taken and appreciated greatly.

   

  The mailbag was full!

  I had planned to have an arvo sleep as I was so tired but I ended up spending the rest of the day opening mail.

  There were so many cards and presents.

  It was all so overwhelming.

  Too keep everything in order I wrote addresses etc on backs of each card as I opened it and then once I had done all of theat they are there for the family to look through.

  My linear mind has to function in an orderly way or I lose the plot

   

  Shoshannah put the chicken that Leann had pre-stuffed in the slow cooker for dinner.

  Azzan fried up spuds for dinner and Shoshannah made a salad.

  The yacht came home.

  The girls fried up fresh cod.

  I ended up organising Shoshannah's next holiday camp times and then booking Azzan & Mahalia in too.

  We called up Sally to ask her something and I ended up lying on my bed talking, and sharing tears with her for ages.
  

  Dinner was eaten and cleaned up and we were still talking.
  

  It was good for us both.
  

   

  Murray came to say goodnight.
  

  His body was very tired and sore after the sailing trip.
  

  I suggested he have a spa, so he did, and felt heaps better afterwards.
  

   

  There was some dinner left in the oven for me so I added more to it as I was really hungry.
  

  Then ended up talking for ages with Murray.
  

  I finally took my dinner to my bed and watched an episode of 'Castle' while I ate.
  

  I actually fell asleep and missed the end of it.
  

  Snuggled myself down and was just drifting off when my we man came crawling in with me again.
  

  He is needing me so much right now.
  

  He is not being clingy as such but just wants to be near me.
  

   

   

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