Monday
Just another day getting things done.
I waded through some invoicing with Tim.
It was all going well and then he stated that he needed to get out in the boat.
My stress levels rose considerably as I tried to hurry so he could get away.
But in so doing I mucked up and it took twice as long to fix it all up
After he left I took a deep breath and managed to get them all done.
I talked to him about it later and managed to convey what had happened without making him feel guilty for pushing me over the edge.
He didn't mean to and certainly never intended to.
He was just on a mission.
I am learning how to communicate my panic and stress which must be a good thing I spose.
Azzan has been getting rather upset easily lately.
I have been trying to encourage him to take a big breath and just talk rather than fume when things don't quite go the way he thinks they should.
Dinner was a prize example.
He was late to the table cuz he didn't get called in time.
His dinner was already dished up.
It was more than he wanted of the leeks and he didn't quinoa.
So there was a major eruption.
By the time I got out there things had gone from bad to badder!!
I intervened to diffuse the situation.
When talking to him later he didn't think he had blown a fuse!!
Obviously fuse blowing is way worse - oh boy 
I have been doing a lot of reading on the intensity of emotions with children like Azzan which has helped me understand a lot more but it sure is hard work keeping one step ahead of it at times.
Our house goes from crazy crazy to crazy funny very quickly.
During this dinner time once the eruption had been diffused the girls began to sing.
They were singing quite loudly across the table, thankfully in unison and also thankfully, in tune with each other.
A mixture of songs but beginning with 'Rolling int he Deep' which they know off by heart!
Then Tim joined in - only it wasn't in time or in tune and he doesn't know the words so it was all rather crazy.
And Azzan couldn't help but begin to smile, and then to laugh, and then to join in!
Fun and games in the family circus 
.
Tuesday
Still trying to pack.
Getting all the other things finished first.
I have cleaned up files on computer.
Needed to do some deleting of thousands of photos and files but before they got deleted I loaded them on a dvd and on Facebook.
Also needed to do a back up as it hadn't been done in a while.
Mahalia went up the hill with Tim to drench some sheep after breakfast
She has been enjoying hanging out with her Dad lately.
The girls have pretty much packed their own gear.
Trying to travel light as we are restricted on the plane.
I lost it this arvo.
Was feeling tired and pressured.
Then Shanni did some baking and called me cuz the oven was on fire.
I went out and found she had turned off the oven - good move, but the door was wide open - not such a good move!
So we shut the door while I took a few deep breaths and got the situation sussed.
It turned out that her wonderfully humungous chocolate chip gluten free cookies were just way too big and were crawling over the sides of the tray and dropping down onto the element.
Hence the flames.
I showed her what to do and she cleaned it up and then got the oven cranked up again to bake them properly.
I was really feeling sick to my stomach with the stress of everything this arvo so I took some magnesium and some Vit B's etc.
Azzan made me a large pot of herb tea and I sat and read while I drank it.
I needed that break.
I had been on the verge of tears - there was just too many demands today.
I was trying to get all the washing under control and thought we had it done.
Then when packing Azzan's, he found pants that he wanted to wear tomorrow had missed the washing altogether.
So another load had to be done.
He ran around looking for more washing to add to the load.
Then soon after I checked Anson's suit to see what we needed to take up with us for him.
Found the programmes from his sister's wedding at the beginning of 2012 still stuffed in the jacket pocket and the shirt desperately in need of washing and the pants all scrunched up looking very sad.
Boys 
So into the machine went the shirt.
Thank goodness I have a dryer!
I had a try on with Shanni helping me to work out what would go best with what.
Then Tim came in and I gave him the choice and he chose a completely different top!
So I will just put them both in and see what happens on the night 
They are light enough and wont tip the scales too badly.
It is time to go shut my suitcase and head off to bed.
Have to leave here at 6am so it will be an early start to a busy day for us.









Recent Comments